#136

Once again,

I lashed out at You, God.

On and on and on,
life continues to be unfair.

Damned diligence is a lie.
Damned faith is a lie, too.

The saying that goes,
“Just believe.
Things will pass.
Better days will come.”

These are all lies, too!

I am forsaken.
I am unloved.

How much more goodness must I do?
How much more pain must I suffer?

When will I be heard?
When will I be answered?

Haven’t I already had enough?

Help me, Father.


Please.

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