#106

The frustration's kicking in.

Haven't You done enough?

I know these are all a test.
I know these are all what is
necessary for what is needed.

But—

These are Your mysterious ways.

But can't You show
any shred of sympathy?

I know You see things differently,
but can't You see in our eyes?

We are in anguish.
We are in despair.

And still You hold us
for the challenge You so
require for the worthy.

What of the rest?

They aren't all brave souls.
They aren't all soldiers
of Your faith.

Should they be disregarded?

Does the sin of being unworthy
rightfully deserve hell,
even on Earth?

I know I am one whose soul
would one day burn,

but...

don't we at least deserve
an apology?

Or if not,
at least a brief respite

before eternal damnation?

We are the strays, after all.

Can we at least get relief
before being cast out?

Or are we unworthy even
of Your slightest,
tiniest,
itty-bitty...

blessing?

But who am I to ask?

I'm going to hell anyway.

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